The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another
There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden
So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight
Saturday, December 20, 2003
Emptiness & Beyond
So. This is what it felt like. what, you ask? The feeling of emptiness and the feeling of yearn that you never seem to be able to satisfy. I'm just waiting around for my bf to call and yet he's oblivious. instead, my epitome of mystery satisfies that craving temporarily. at least HE cares. he even took the effort to call me 3 times during my trip (which he disappointly failed to get through). but it's the effort dearies.
i'm now feeling so lost and wondering, is this how it's gonna be like? i mean this guy who claims to love me (i cringe at even typing that he DOES), doesn't even dare hold my hand or give me a reassuring hug or embrace. and frankly, as he's told me, he's never been someone's confidant. so why should i trust him so much? maybe because i have to. or maybe because i WANT to believe i CAN. those are 2 VERY different ideas. even my best gal pal sms-ed me and said she thought of two-timing HER bf. i was actually SUPPORTIVE of her idea. because i wanted to do that once. and have recently been thinking of doing so with the epitome of mystery in my life. he sounds so much more real and just THERE. you know what i mean?
I can't deny. I love my bf very much. If there's one wish i could have right now, it'd be for him to be right here in my room with me. And we're sitting on the floor. Just chatting. Laughing. Smiling. And prolly a couple of innocent snogs every now and then. That's all. But even to see him eye to eye nowadays... seems impossible. I'm thinking of ending my misery. All over again.
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Wani
23/02/1986 (Pisces)
(Psychology & Communications) Monash University
Chatting, chilling, poetry, movies, making love, making out.
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In love with love; cynical with a hint of tease. ;) LOVE THE WORLD AND SMILE AT THE STRANGER.