new year's eve
i'm alone at home. and i'm grateful for that.
it's exactly what i need before i head out later to join the cattle around singapore who act like they've never seen fireworks in their entire lives.
i have one main resolution for 2008. and the others will fall into place.
i hope he's feeling better tonight, so i won't have to feel guilty for dragging his ass around past his bedtime. hmm.
sorry for the cynical tone, but i'm just feeling frustrated over certain issues that i'm mulling around in my head.
and the only solution i can think of: it's about fucking-high time that i move out of this hell-hole.
i sense 2008 will be bittersweet, as it's the last year i'm officially allowed to laze around as a student. i'll miss being in school - the whole no job, no responsibility life has made me into such a bum.
fuck.
so the next time you'll see me post here, it'll be next year. till then, have a (as) wonderful (as possible) new year's eve, and let's just drink up and be happy for once. CHEERS! Thursday, December 27, 2007
closing
new year's eve is just 4 days away, and for me, it's just been a dragged-out painful close to the year.
i personally have nothing against 2008 coming, yet it's as though i want to remain forever here - in limbo. although 2007 hasn't been the greatest year for me, nothing sucks more than how it's going to end.
everything and everyone around me just sickens me. even he sickens me.
and it doesn't help that people have started hinting to me to leave.
as much as i don't (and i shouldn't) whine and grumble here, i cannot hold it back anymore.
in my world, i'm nothing. and in reality, i probably still am. Sunday, December 23, 2007
what family really is
it's during christmas, or towards the end of the year (generally), that i realise what family means to me.
and it's not blood. it's not who you've been living with for the past 20-odd years. it's not.
family is who you make them out to be.
and for me, some of them may be people i still have yet to meet.
one day i will probably say this.
but for now, my only family is you.
Saturday, December 22, 2007'tis not the season
because i'm sick.
literally. and of everything.
i'm just fed up with the way things and people are around me.
why?
this is one of those moments i need, not only a hug, but words of comfort and a smile to get me through the new year. Wednesday, December 19, 2007
it's up!
after hours of leaving the computer on, ALL the vacation photos are up at multiply!
click here to view them. :)
quite a lot of them are not in sequence of how i took them, and how they were visited, but there's really a whole LOT, so please bear with the lack of chronological arrangement.
ENJOY. Monday, December 17, 2007
getting dead-er
i know this blog is becoming quieter by the day, and i've also promised my vacation photos on multiply almost a week ago. but please spare me.
i caught food poisoning on saturday, with credits given to filthy sushi (should i mention the place? hmm) let's just say its mascot is a *cough cough* wee little green frog. this isn't the first time i got bad sushi from them. so please don't mention going for sushi, to me. in a while.
hopefully i will have the energy to upload the photos tonight.
it sucked even more because it was the boy's birthday weekend. and falling sick was the worst thing possible. i'm SO sorry, baby. :(
another sad piece of news received today was when my best girlfriend messaged me about her cat gone missing. don't worry babe, just do all you can to post up notices around your place and pray that he'll come home. i can't imagine losing my cats.
what's up with hady winning asian idol? not that it's not something to be proud of, but he really doesn't stand a chance against Jaclyn, for example, in terms of vocal quality. oh well, guess his charming, boyish looks got him what he wanted.
on a more happier note, HAPPY 2-1 to ZAKIAH! welcome to the club dear!
i miss rolling over to snuggle up to his armpits. Friday, December 14, 2007
deja vu
i could talk about a roller coaster ride i took at sixflags, magic mountain back in california called 'deja vu'. and i could say it was one of the most exhilirating rides i've taken in a while.
but that's not the point.
suddenly, i remember why i decided to stop myself from caring. and how messed up my head gets around trivial issues. i forgot how my blood boils in my ears till i can hear my own heartbeat.
suddenly, this weekend seems unappealing. in fact, repulsive.
because, this weekend, i'll be reunited with the one reason why i sought out solitude for those 18 days. Tuesday, December 11, 2007
back!
i just got home from an awesome and exhausting trip a few hours ago. and i don't intend to sleep. might as well, since i'm wide awake anyway. :)
this post won't be long, because i'm not really in the mood to tell minute details of how awesome my trip was. haha. photos will be up at multiply soon enough - just wait for it.
there's PLENTY of photos, don't worry.
i'm looking forward to an unforgettable weekend ahead. and i just cant wait to see my baby. ;-)
i can safely say this 2-and-a-half-week break was exactly what i needed. time for me.
although i'm pretty burnt out from literally living out of my luggage, i've seen and learnt so much. about others, and myself.
and some things have set themselves in perspective for me. and that's the best thing.
