I am the secret that you keep; MISS SCARLET.

The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another

There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden

So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight

Sunday, February 08, 2004

Strangely Enough

i feel out of place today. for the first time, on a Sunday, i miss school. i can't wait to go to school tomorrow. maybe it's because tomorrow marks our 4th month together. but i know nothing special will happen. because nothing ever does. and he only wishes me a simple "Happy __ month!" at the end of the day, at night. that's all. through sms. the rest of the day is like any other. i'm pretty sad about that, because i find it significant, like i do every month. but he told me in advance that he doubts he will get me anything for Valentine's Day. due to his lack of belief in it. bummer, BIG TIME. but i don't care. i'm still doing something sweet for him. and if i really love him, i shouldn't expect anything in return.

still. it really IS a let down. :-( well... at least we're back on track on our relationship, and i guess i have to be thankful enough for that itself. i missed him alot this weekend. and not having any real homework to do, makes my mind more vacant and makes it wonder to him effortlessly. there was a nudging, tugging feeling last week on the bus. my face was so close to his that i felt almost so sure that i was going to kiss him there and then. but something held me back. but it was my first time i told him my true feelings on the spot. we were talking about how people sweet talk and woo their crushes and he was saying something like, "yea, so you can try and flirt with him." (in reference to advice given to my best gal pal - she's crushing hard on her classmate. but she wasn't, like, with us at that time). then my response was, "i don't have to"... "why?"... "coz' i already have you!" then he was like "okay, don't say anymore, in case i explode". he was totally blushing, and so CUTE!

SIGH... i guess i'll have to wait out a little more for me to make my move. i just need enough time to muster up the courage. damn. i wish he was here with me now. so i could smell his scent... and just never snap out of my daze. *DREAMING*