I am the secret that you keep; MISS SCARLET.

The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another

There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden

So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight

Saturday, December 11, 2004

new things learnt, a little too late

there have been countless times when we only learn our lessons when it's FAR too late. haven't we all been down that road? my friend, Veron, has an entry dated 10th December that is basically about letting things or people go when they don't reciprocate/have any use to us any longer. (if you wish to read it, there's a link to her blog on the right hand side) i think i was very inspired by what the words actually meant. alot of us hold onto things/people wishing and hoping that it will turn out alright. i think it's only human nature for us to do so. maybe it's just natural for us to have Faith. even though it's hidden deep within us.

i know that's what keeps me going. many may call it living in denial, but if we don't have faith in what we do, then what drives us? you could say self-motivation. but without Faith that things will work out the way you want it to, how can you self-motivate yourself? there have been many times i've kept Faith in people who literally have complete disregard for the efforts i'm putting in for them, only to be totally crushed much later. then there are also those FEW who surprise you, and you realise their worth and what you may have lost if you didn't believe in them in the first place. it's easy to say "LET IT GO", but to do it, is another issue altogether. i know one has to try very hard, but some people may need support from loved ones to go through that rough phase.

there are still alot of things that i wish i could let go of up till now. but i can't. maybe i don't wish to. but i know i can't. it may consume me one day, i know. why am i so stubborn?