The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another
There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden
So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight
Thursday, February 24, 2005
my birthday... the mo(u)rning after
haha! what a title! well, it's kind of the truth. but not before i can't shake off the good vibes i got from spending the day with great friends.
to Nora & Nariyan (or rather known as Deen now... hehe): it's been more than 2 years since we went to the same school, but we still keep in contact, and i'm glad we still do! thanks for spending lunch with me at Anatolia, just laughing, crapping and people-watching! so sorry i couldn't get to check out your new motorcycle deen! but next time, you shall treat me to a spin around the block okay? ^_^ you guys will always be my two awesome friends to chill out with, and hope to see you guys real soon! i can only sympathise with your school stress now.. sorry! and Nora, don't worry, i'm sure you'll get your SIP okay? chill babe... *MUACKZ*
to Diyana& Veron: what can i say... ultimate bitch has tantalising babat (fat)! hehe, don't kill me okay ronnz dear... haha! couldn't help it.. had to pinch you... woo-woo! and the next time you intend to commit another sin Di, count me in okay?... haha, nevermind, we didn't get caught, and next time, we shall get our share *WINKS*. dinner at Coffee Club was great, especially when we joked about - erm, can i say it here? [you know who i'm talking about ron..;-)] couldn't help it, so sorry! it's damn funny... like shit! and don't feel guilty about the bag; it totally ROCKS! and also, don't be too mindful about the kind of english you use - fuck care lar! wahahahaha... i'm still high as you can tell.. shhhh... lots of HUGS & KISSES!!!
well, thanks to Sobri for calling me out of the blue to wish me Happy Birthday (even though you already did, one day in advance :-P). really appreciate it. ^_^
on to the mourning part - it's the realisation that it's my last teenage year and the oncoming of more responsibilities, less fun, and supposedly more "maturity". BLEKK! fuck it, seriously. can you believe that the first thing this morning when my mom wished me happy birthday was "Happy Birthday Wani! 19 huh? well, you have to be more responsible and mature. can't be like before - have to do something for yourself." WHAT THE FUCK! 19th birthday lecture is it??! don't need to rub it in, or make me feel so bloody fugly about turning a year older. she spoilt the start of the day, and she spoilt the end of it as well. i got home "late"... 10.40pm to be exact. she said i didn't tell her that i would come home late. hello???? weren't you listening? i told you during breakfast and before i left the house. then she accused me of spending my time with other people than the friends i told her i was going to spend the day with. what???? you scold me for being home late is one thing. then you accuse me of lying to you about who i'm with? i have to do this people, so so so so so so so so so so SORRY.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!
there. said it. so fucking pissed. fucking screwed. i just told her straight and flat, "i DID spend the day with my friends, you don't believe me, you can call them now!" and i just walked out of the room. she knows how to make me feel so pathetic, so useless, so fucking worthless. ya, in her eyes, i can't be trusted, i'm of no REAL use and i'm always in trouble for something I DIDN'T FUCKING DO.
screw my life. huh? say what? what LIFE? this is sheer torture.
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Wani
23/02/1986 (Pisces)
(Psychology & Communications) Monash University
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