The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another
There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden
So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight
Sunday, February 20, 2005
pathetically fugly
i don't know why i feel so. but it's just the way things are (for those of you who have no idea what 'fugly' means, it's a mashed-up combination of 'fucking ugly').
it's not belittlement from others nor low self-esteem, it's just a vibe. call it bad aura if you will. and considering that my birthday is on Wednesday, it's making me feel even more pathetic. before i know it, i'd already hit 20. man, i don't feel 'adultish' at all. i still have the brain of a 15 year old, and my insane childishness can dip to levels of a 10 year old. i hate growing older. i miss being an innocent, naive child. when you're excused from not being able to understand the "big things" in Life, in the world.
*SIGH* another year to dread, another year to regret about.
by the way, ever had the feeling that you loved something or someone, but you just don't know what or who it is you love? it's just an overwhelming sense of Love inside of you that you wish you could pour onto someone or something, and care for it unconditionally. i've been feeling like that these past few days. and it's starting to frustrate me. like, "why can't i find a being or an object i can show and express my love to, freely, without the fear of getting rejected or heartbroken or hurt or disappointed?" call me weird. told you i am. anyone out there who has ever felt this way before?
God, i am seriously losing my mind.
PUT YOUR LOVELY NAME HERE
Wani
23/02/1986 (Pisces)
(Psychology & Communications) Monash University
Chatting, chilling, poetry, movies, making love, making out.
Tigger & Princess
In love with love; cynical with a hint of tease. ;) LOVE THE WORLD AND SMILE AT THE STRANGER.