The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another
There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden
So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
why???
why is it that when one person disappoints me... there are others who follow in step? it's like dominoes falling one after another; a chain reaction. it's a sad, sad, SAD story. i'm not begging for pity or even sympathy or whatever. it's just me airing out frustration, anger... just GRRRRrrrrr!!!
i won't bog you down with details, but all i have to say is it doesn't help matters at all, considering that i'm quite the disappoint myself. i know i have not lived up to anyone's expectations ever in my life. maybe because i don't expect myself to live up to expectations (get it?). i'm that kind of person. not believing in myself has been always a boulder in the road for me, but somehow, i've managed to get around it. SOMEHOW. maybe with God believing in me. but i have to stop relying on chance and coincidence (or even God's faith in me, sad to say) to drag me out of every struggle. i always say i'll try to stand on my own, do something for myself.
when will that happen?
i won't babble on about my theories and rant on about how sucky i am - i already got called an "uptight fucking bitch" following a previous rambling. hmmm... but i really couldn't care less about what that person thinks of me. in fact, even if i want to be the BITCH for the rest of my life in his eyes, so be it. FUCK YOU RIGHT BACK.
*like i said already, i don't wish to hold too many grudges; but there are really some i can't live without.
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Wani
23/02/1986 (Pisces)
(Psychology & Communications) Monash University
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