I am the secret that you keep; MISS SCARLET.

The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another

There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden

So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight

Thursday, March 24, 2005

and to think adults were "mature"

well, well, well. i guess adults is just a term for those above for 21- but it doesn't necessarily mean that they are "matured".

remember i told you i am supposed to be working for this lady, Juliet, as a part-time salesgirl at her shop or bazaars (whichever she needs me at)? well, she never got back to me after just one day at Hyatt Hotel and i was thinking "maybe she decided she can handle the workload herself". so i just took it with grace that she never called back.

then my mom told me she met up with her today. and guess what her reason was for not calling me back... PLUS replacing me with a permanent salesgirl, without informing me? she told my mom i was too quiet. even when there were customers approaching, i never stood up.

HOLD IT. before you judge me, let me tell you MY side of the story.

i was standing ALOT that day. whenever customers were nearing the table, even if they didn't look very interested, i stood up. SHE was the one who told me, "it's okay, you don't have to stand up all the time. only when they ask you questions... because alot of them are just browsers, most of the time." even when she told me that, i STILL felt bad, and STILL stood up occassionally. SHE TOLD ME TO DO THAT OKAY? i have no idea what my mom must think of me now. not that i have an excellent record of myself with her. shit.

and to think she's an adult. she doesn't even have the courtesy to tell me that she doesn't need my help anymore. even if she doesn't want to tell me the real reason as to why, she can always come up with some other reason like, "i don't think i need your help anymore because i think i can handle it on my own from here" or something like that. GEEZ. that news really pissed me off.

seems like youths today are not the only "immature" beings around. PFFFFTTTT. damn it.