The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another
There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden
So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight
Monday, April 18, 2005
a whole dive into an abyss of depression
if Life could teach me one thing, and one thing only, it would be that things never stay the same. in a matter of, be it, years, months, weeks, days, hours, minutes, seconds.
from a whole week of bliss and utter sweetness, i've finally entered the normality of my life - which is sheer depression. i can't imagine any week that passes by, where i don't get at least ONE day of ultimate sadness. and now, it seems those days have returned. and it looks like it's going to stay much longer.
i miss my friends. ronnz honey, i feel so bad about not being there for you. you know i would have. though i'm glad that lynns and carine were there for you, i would have liked to share your pain as well. like you have been for me too. i pray that things are looking up, if not alot, at least somewhat. zakiah, i know i haven't been paying attention to our friendship for so long, and the neglect is getting to me. you don't know how much i miss you - NEED you - right now. i never intended to take what we have for granted, so... if you get to read this, give me a holler, and we'll meet up. i HAVE to SEE YOU. to my NS guys, especially James and Shai, jeez. i don't know how to make up for all those times i turned down all those outings on the weekends. DADDY, i know i owe you one. but i promise, promise, promise that one day i WILL go out with you okay?
i'll take this chance to say a BIG sorry to Yasin too. i think you know why. i don't know how to say this or even start, but i have to say something. SORRY for getting you mixed up in all this. for giving you unnecessary burden. SORRY for getting you tangled up in my "downright-one-hell-of-a-crappy-fucked-up" life. SORRY for disappointing you in the short time that we've been together; i don't know how many more flaws you'll get to see in me in future. SORRY that you had to end up with ME, most of all. but i'm just a girl who's crazy about you. so in LOVE with you. whatever happens, you'll still be what you've meant to me from DAY ONE - the one person who showed me what LOVE is really about.
i cry because i'm weak. and i'm not afraid to say that. even my skin cries the blood that i breathe off. i'm only human.
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Wani
23/02/1986 (Pisces)
(Psychology & Communications) Monash University
Chatting, chilling, poetry, movies, making love, making out.
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In love with love; cynical with a hint of tease. ;) LOVE THE WORLD AND SMILE AT THE STRANGER.