The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another
There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden
So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight
Monday, June 20, 2005
under the weather... again
this flu bug is freaking irritating. just when my sis and me have recovered... my mom caught it, then my dad... and now i'm starting to feel it again. damn! my throat's scratchy and my head's slightly pounding again... could you just die?!
and to add to that, the family will be driving up to KL this Wednesday morning for my sis's Skate Malaysia 2005 competition. not really a holiday... just for the sake of her ice-skating. oh well, i have to drag myself along by FORCE and i have no idea what the hell i'm supposed to do there because the competition starts on Thursday, all the way till Sunday, when we drive back down home again. so i can forget about shopping that's for sure. sometimes i wish she didn't want to partake in soooo many events. jeez... -_-
AND ADDING TO THAT, that means i can't see my Yogi for 2 weeks because this weekend i'll be away - so we'll only get to meet next, next weekend. i'll try and ask my mom permission to spend that ENTIRE Saturday with you, okay? on the brighter side, thank you my dear for the necklace, though it was really not needed just so that i can remember you and miss you always. i truly appreciate it. and i WILL carry around that picture we took, because it's WAY better than the first time.
as always, i disappointed you again by not opening up to you, by having me be with people you don't really feel comfortable about. but all i can assure you is, i will always love you and ONLY YOU. being emotionally vulnerable to you was much, much harder than i thought. so hard that it pains me to know i can't be so open with you as you are with me every single night before i sleep - till the point that i have no words left to say but cry myself to sleep. it's like an internal tug-of-war; i want to, but i shall not. and hearing the tone of desperation and disappointment in your voice only breaks me further. i can only offer you a sincere apology for now, and an assurance that i will learn to open myself more over the months.
I'M SO SORRY. :-(
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Wani
23/02/1986 (Pisces)
(Psychology & Communications) Monash University
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