I am the secret that you keep; MISS SCARLET.

The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another

There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden

So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight

Monday, November 28, 2005

all jumbled up

well, i took this test from lynn's blog. thanks for providing the link dear! but i'm just dumbfounded by the result. me... have sexual drive? err... okay. i think.

"...What this means is that when your unconscious mind sees an opportunity to remind you of your sexual desires, it takes full advantage of it. Because of this, things that have very little sexual content or that seem sexually neutral to others, may register as sexually charged to you, at least on an unconscious level. Your unconscious mind recognizes the value of sexuality. The reason it may do so, is because of a deep-rooted fear of the opposite — living a life that is numb to sexual desire or is turned cold by it. You unconscious mind may be trying to avoid this sexual dullness, and so it reacts by swinging to the opposite extreme, strong sexual desire. By sending you these sexual messages on a regular basis, your unconscious makes sure you don't forget about sex. If you view your sexual desire with a positive attitude, you can welcome the vitality and strength sexual thoughts can bring into your life. This would allow you to honor the drive your unconscious has chosen to be an important focus for you. It is a message that you are very much alive, and have a great deal of passion to bring to life. Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Sexuality, there is much more to who you are at your core."

well, pushing that aside, i know i shouldn't let small things like this bug me or even get to me. but You said i could call You. but now, You're already asleep. i told You if You're too tired to talk to me, i'm fine with it. but please JUST MESSAGE ME that You are shagged out. i'll understand, i promise i will. it just hurts to wait up and look forward to hearing Your voice, when all i get is grumbling from You in the background when Your mom answers the phone. i did tell You i was going to call You a little late... but i guess my little late became too late. i miss You.

to be honest i wanted to pay You a surprise visit today because i missed You that much. but unfortunately i ended work too late.

now i'm tearing. how pathetic.