I am the secret that you keep; MISS SCARLET.

The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another

There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden

So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight

Sunday, January 01, 2006

back.

so... i get to return to a brand new year, 2006, but with a depressing cloud over my head. this time around, we spent so much time with my brothers that it was even harder to say good-bye.

an abundant amount of tears were shed. even for them.

it even touched me and my sister most when my brother (the younger one), Jonas, wrapped up two extra go-away gifts for us. and surprise, suprise. one was two bags of biscuits that my sis said she liked when she was trying a Swedish dessert, Nyponsoppa. the other was a cd from his own collection, Teddybears Sthlm, which we played full blast when we were on the way to go bowling in my older brother's (Anders) Volvo. it was awesome. i had several strikes that day; must be plain lucky charms around. ^_^

of course, skiing was way cool. though i sprained my ankleS on the first day, so i rested on the day after. but i was good to go on the 3rd day. the lowest it dropped to up in Salen was -15 degrees centigrade. in Stockholm itself, it was barely -5 or something, but we had snow almost everyday. and a snowstorm 2 days in a row. i loved those days the best. :-P

new year resolution... save $2 everyday, so that me and my sis can fly up there again (maybe this June for summer and sailing) by ourselves or maybe next year.

i'm still in limbo. can't believe i'm home. can't believe i was actually there. i'm just stoning in front of the screen as my fingers type out these words. i haven't slept for over 24 hours since yesterday morn Sweden time (which would be afternoon here by then). totally shagged.

but there's something that made me want to come home really bad. or rather someone. i just hope and pray HE still feels the same way.