I am the secret that you keep; MISS SCARLET.

The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another

There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden

So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

chocolates

this entry is titled 'chocolates' for two big reasons.

the first very apparent reason is that the clock just clicked midnight, and it's officially St. Valentine's Day. wow-wee for some, boo-hoo for others... and the rest, heck care, as they say. chocolates and flowers are the most cliche gifts that anyone can possibly give on such an occassion, but don't deny it; we still love receiving them if it's from someone we feel strong affection for.

the other major reason why this entry is titled as above, is because i have been stuffing my face with milk chocolate tonight. not because i got them as a gift. for God's sake, they have been sitting in the fridge since forever. i suddenly had a craving to stuff my face because i'm miserable and lonely. and what does that do to help with my weight problem? nothing. but what miracles can it do with my mood? wonders.

my baby's away in camp, and it's harder than i thought. it's only been 1 pathetic day, and i already feel helpless without hearing his voice, and acknowledging the notion that i might not see him for 2 weeks. furthermore, my sister has just been warded into NUH due to low blood platelets and they want to keep her under observation. she's been sick for a week now, with a high fever continuosly. i might sleep there one of these nights. i'm going to miss her, extremely.

the two people i love the most, apart from my fat, lazy cat (of course) are away from me on this day that's supposed to signify close bonds and love. this Valentine's can only look better because i know i still have my friends to look forward to. and they're a hoot. ^_^

thank God for friends.
just let the weeks past quickly so i may hold my baby in my arms again.
and have my sister by my side where she belongs.

my dear, though You will only read this when You get back, (or You may never read this at all), i just want to tell You that You're the world to me. nothing can change that. nothing WILL change that. ever. i love You.