The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another
There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden
So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight
Saturday, April 15, 2006
when you realise how incapable you are
you know how sometimes you do things, not because you want to, but because you want to prove some people otherwise, or even do it so that people will get off your back?
that's what my licence means to me. nothing else.
and once again, i'm faced with the great misery of failing. for the sake of myself and the people around me. i feel like a complete failure.
the last time i felt close to this feeling, was during my A-Levels results. failed my TP AGAIN?
this time, the problem was failure to check safety. and of course, the immediate failure of not stopping at stop-line. i'm so smart. and i didn't even realise that spot has a 'STOP' sign.
oh wells, as my sarcastic, annoying, so-not-helping and B****** of a ****** put it, "well, guess we have no choice but to spend more money!"
and my cousin can say this to me, as comfort, "again ah? what did you do?"
thanks guys. i REALLY appreciate it.
i held back my tears when the tester passed me the checklist, and dashed out of the building. once out, i called my darling and burst into tears. all the way home. in the bus. in public. i didn't care.
and something inside me wants to burst out in tears again. i can't help it. i don't know why. i just feel so useless. so stupid. so idiotic. so pathetic. so incapable. so redundant. just damn bloody fucking screwed up.
1 immediate failure and 24 demerit points. what do you call that for a second attempt?
even the tester said "sorry". yes, sorry that i'm so retarded.
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Wani
23/02/1986 (Pisces)
(Psychology & Communications) Monash University
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