I am the secret that you keep; MISS SCARLET.

The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another

There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden

So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight

Monday, April 24, 2006

words to ponder

hmm. hmm. hmm.

i was browsing through a couple of friend's blogs and i was taken in awe of mel's. her pictures are awesome. self-portraits at its best, i must say. they're not amateur-ish at all, dear. shut up!

wish i had such a gorgeous body to capture through the eyes of the lens.

anyways, what also struck me was her single-lined entry of "say yes to sex. no to commitment".

ever done something extremely bad and told close friends? only difference is that, when you do tell, they don't seem to think it's THAT bad, though it's something absolutely sinful (they just tell you to watch out for yourself, at best). but then, a long forgotten friend rings you up and you share your life stories thus far. suddenly you spill about your wrong doing, and they are immediately taken aback, shocked in awe and tell you that their perception of you is changed forever. the deep disappointment in their voices suddenly make you realise how sinful it was.

after all the close-approvals from people around you, this one person cares enough to shed some sincere remorse over your sin.

that's when you know how much they mean to you. how much they care. and how stupid you were to have committed it. then depression settles in. and you wish to repent, but you know it's irreversible. because. you. just. can't.

whether this is just a hypothetical situation or not, that is not the issue. the thing is, sometimes we really have to figure things out hard before committing to it. before someone points out the idiotic decision we made. and we can only regret, because what's done is done. and some things just can't be undone or taken back.

just think.