I am the secret that you keep; MISS SCARLET.

The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another

There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden

So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight

Sunday, May 14, 2006

the Great disappointment.

i took Your hand to hold, and clasp it with my own. but You shook Your head, shrugged it off, and let it go.
You kept asking me to go off, but i stood firmly rooted because i couldn't bear to leave.
i asked You to go ahead and leave if You wanted to, and You got on Your bike, sped away, leaving me in my own pool of tears.

my heart plummetted, and burned in front of You. but it didn't matter one bit.

for all the anniversaries that have passed, i always gave You a token of my affection to show that You are someone special. even if it wasn't bought, i would hand-make it.

for all the anniversaries that have passed, You had a simple rule to live by. buy something, or give nothing. and i would only get a greeting - "happy anniversary".

and it doesn't matter one bit.

You say i don't care. yes, maybe i don't care ENOUGH for You, and that's why You say i'm never willing to make sacrifices, nor care about Your feelings.

but just remember this, in spite of how many times You shoot me down with Your critical remarks, Your sarcasm, Your Great disappointment in me or say i don't fucking care, i'll be the One who stands by Your side. i'll be the One who will always strive to be there for You, although You do not want me there.

i'll be the One who DOES care for You, even when everyone else turns away. and that comes with the fact that i very well know You don't trust me anymore, and yet, remain with You.

call me a bitch, selfish, self-centred or a fucking whore, but my love for You is pure. and that is one thing You can never take away from me. never.