The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another
There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden
So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight
Sunday, October 14, 2007
a blow to my heart
i could say that this has got to be the worst hari raya i've experienced. as far as i can remember.
the main reason being that, when seeking forgiveness from one of my aunt's she casually asked me (in malay), "how are you and your boyfriend? still together?"
"yes."
then she whispered into my ear and stole a glance to where my mom was sitting, "your mom confided in me that she doesn't like you being with him. she really doesn't like it. but i told her, if this is what makes wani happy, just let her be. it's not doing her any harm. but she really doesn't like it."
i just cried.
"i'm sorry for telling you this", she ended off.
i thought no one saw the tears, but my cousin, nasser, did. and after sharing my worry with him, i felt a bit better. though i doubt the nagging feeling will ever leave.
then as i went to a few more houses, the ladies kept telling me "ominous" advice like, "you should talk to your mom more. she's like your best friend. we're all ladies in the family and should stick together."
*shiver*
i just nodded and "uh-huh"-ed every single the time.
so my gut feeling was right. nobody likes him. and for what reason, i guess i don't even bother to care. because hearing all those things from people who hardly knew the guy, made me feel sick to my stomach. it made me miss him in a way i've never missed him before.
i really felt like an outsider yesterday. though i attempted to blend in as much as i could.
i'm sorry, but my mother has never been my best friend (let alone a friend), and never will be. you can judge me for it, i really don't care.
it's times like these i need someone to tell me i'm not crazy for being so crazily in love with you. :(
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Wani
23/02/1986 (Pisces)
(Psychology & Communications) Monash University
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