The signal is subtle
We pass just close enough to touch
No questions, no answers
We know by now to say enough
With only simple words
With only subtle turns
The things we feel alone for one another
There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep
Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden
So I won't sleep if you won't sleep tonight
Monday, February 25, 2008
2 days MIA
my initial thought was to take a break from blogging as long as my baby's taking a break from me. but i can't contain all of it within me.
me: if there's one thing that i learnt from all this, it's that, i guess i care more about him than i thought. cousin nasser: good, it means you learnt something.
maybe he is right. but this sucks. period. he didn't come home. all because of me. and all i wished for my birthday was to go back to the way things were before our argument. me and my acid tongue.
finally, at 5.19 pm sunday evening, i got an SMS from him: "im sori 2 do this 2u. U were just 2 much. I need sum time 2 cool down. Coz im pissed at u. U jz took me 4 granted. Call u when im ready."
word for word.
i cried tears of relief, but i know it's just the beginning. it's bad enough i've been in tears the entire weekend. i know it'll be days before i hear from him. i just hope he'll listen to my earnest apology and is willing to start afresh. i really hate myself.
but i trust him to know what he's doing. and i have faith he'll come back. my mom said it's a good time to reflect and realise if he's really the one for me. and all i could think to myself, was, "all the more i think that he is!"
not having him to talk to, to laugh with, to hold dear... everything else is nothing.
(i may sound mushy and overly dramatic - i realise some of you may think that. but honestly, he's my only family.)
and he told me - in my birthday card - "i AM your family". i'm keeping faith. and that keeps me sane.
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Wani
23/02/1986 (Pisces)
(Psychology & Communications) Monash University
Chatting, chilling, poetry, movies, making love, making out.
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